Wolfie-Miyaku

OMFG I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE HOW FUCKING INCOMPETENT THIS SITE CAN BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just spent an hour drawing this fucking awesome pikachu in muro ... so i'm done right? so i click done but nothing is happening so, ... i'm waiting right? but nothing is happening so i click file and go through the menu and click SAVE and exit to Sta.sh ..... then my picture isn't there and it didn't save and even when i go back in my history it's not there and no one will ever see this. not to mention that stupid muro was only letting me use THE WORST BRUSH so it was THE BEST FREAKING ACCOMPLISHMENT ............... AND NOW IT'S GON ARGHHH I SWISH I COULD SCREAM IN A BIGGER FONT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Just wondering, is it ok to share everything i have on the internet with my partner? It's not that I wish to hide anything from him, If that were the case I wouldn't have told my bestie about my DA page. This journal just needs to be something private for a minute here. My mind has been drifting through memories and circumstances. I found a memory where I made a choice and it was a good choice. There was never a bad choice to be made just a different choice, not even a dangerous one, but I  do wistfully wonder what would I be now if i had have walked the other road and committed to it..... Yes I do wonder, I don't know if I would have stuck with my choice though so no matter which way I would have walked I would be wondering but I suppose, looking at it now, I definitely took the road that was tread more often than not, there was no daring and maybe that it was really bothers me about it. I would like to know what it would be like to wake up and experience that different life had I have stuck to my choice, so much turmoil, my mother just might have a heart attack, I believe that I shock her enough as it remains, with all my wants for extra piercings and art upon my body. But still I wonder, the beauty of it, I wish to describe it but fear to do so, afraid of being discovered, not of my opinions and tastes but of my, not so secret, secretive yearnings. I think it is but envy for a world that I could never handle completely. Perhaps I shall write about it, saving it in secret posting it in public, speaking in riddles of a subject matter that none will find all too clear at all. ..... Perfect.

Sad Face strikes again!!!! this is some kind of bitch session just for me to share. My nan died, my parents are moving away, Lasalle is starting up again, it's dine lasalle this year, i have to finish my cert this year, i still have books undone! at home! i'm working non stop, bill won't answer his phone, and on top of all this one of my best friends/brother/mentor is getting married and they have only been together a little over a year and maybe 6 months. I was trying to figure out why it bothered me so bad then it has struck me that i have so many memories, of it being just us, i think i'm jealous though it's not a love jealousy, it's a "he's my mentor of all things, and i have idolised him for the longest time and now he's not around" we used to do late night drives we used to watch bad movies together, and get icecream when i depressed. he was there for me. we went on the longest road trip together, had deep conversations and hit a wombat in the car. We lived together. And now he's not around. Even though he moved away for his job, and i know it must be hard on her, he's still the most awesome person ever and this situation just shits me. So there! I guess that's how it is, I feel the same way about my real older brother living so far away after we lived together for so long, i just miss them....

Want to start a huge forum about realistic things that we can/could do to heal the world. Sure, starting with ourselves is good, but healing just me, doesn't heal people in Japan, Mexico, Libya etc. Where ever you are in the world, what kind of good things are you doing to help change things. Change the environment, change laws, same sex marriage rights, destroying national parks/landmarks. PEACE. I just want peace between countries, less outsourcing jobs and companies, more job security, more jobs, less unemployed, less reason for dole. I just want to know what i can do, what we can do. Letter writing aside, what petitions are going around? argh i don't know